Good morning friends!
Oh, how is it already August? The days are both very long and short. I can’t believe another client deadline of 8/31 is nearly here but on the other hand – did my brother really get his kitten only three weeks ago? I thought he had her for two months now. What is time?
Work has been going terribly and weighs on me constantly, so I’m trying to find joy elsewhere. It’s hard to since
a lot most of my validation comes from my job, and if something is not going well at work, then I feel like an all-around failure. So healthy, right? This made me feel better.
It’s not something I can put in my email signature or anything, but I feel better knowing that everyone else is trying their best to wade through this shitty year like I am. And pandemic or not, I feel better knowing that it’s completely human to stumble and make mistakes.
I haven’t had the energy to work on much else other than my Speckled Squares blanket. I’m almost done with the fourth row!
I still want to buy more yarn for this, very badly, but I’m waiting to see how far my current stash can take me. I think I have enough for at least a few more rows. The issue then is that I am probably bound to get the same colors to continue with the blanket – or I could completely mix up the colors and take it to a new direction. I don’t know. I don’t feel like making a decision about it yet, so I’ll just keep going with the current stash until I run out of it.
This weekend we went to the Fort Harrison State Park in Indianapolis. We’ve been trying to do more of our hikes in the city. We live in a teeny suburb about 30 minutes outside of Indianapolis, and it feels pretty rural at times. The Facebook page for the neighborhood HOA is full of posts like WHY IS FACEBOOK TRYING TO HIDE THE TRUTH ABOUT HYDROXYCHLOROQUINE, so it’s nice to remember that we are pretty close to a big city that actually accepts, you know, science. Fortunately a mask mandate was passed for the entire state starting on July 27, but Indianapolis had already put their mandate in place well before that.
We chose a 2.5-mile moderately-rated trail. The park was pretty crowded at first, so we kept our masks on while we tried to find our trail, which wasn’t well-marked. But once we found our trail, it was very quiet and we only encountered two other families. The forest was so still and quiet, and was a perfect setting for me to detach from my worries a bit. Plus, I don’t think I’ll ever stop being amazed at the summers here. We can go hiking in mid-August at 3 pm, and the high is only 84 degrees? As I write this post, it’s 10:30 AM in Texas, and the heat index in Austin is already at 95 degrees.
This weekend marked a very slow return to normalcy for me. After months of ordering Instacart, I decided I’d go back to the grocery store myself. Having the state-wide mask mandate helped me feel more comfortable, along with studies showing that the virus isn’t as easily spread on surfaces. I chose a grocery store in a larger suburb than my town, since I don’t think anyone is going to follow the mandate where I live. I went to the store at 7 AM Friday, and it was very quiet. Other than one man proudly walking through the store without a mask, clearly looking for someone to challenge him, everyone else complied with the mandate.
I had to laugh at how differently this year turned out – at the beginning of the year, I was trying to get some international trips scheduled. And now here I was, excited about being in a Meijer again. Later that night, we got our first takeout since March – pizza! I usually have a 4-slice rule to keep my body from feeling sad, but I broke that rule and ate the entire 10-inch pie. There was a lot of regret about my life choices following that meal, but I’m happy that we’re getting a little bit of normalcy back.
I hope you all are safe and healthy and able to enjoy a wee bit of normalcy as well.